Twiddling my thumbs

I’ve been sitting around this past week or so waiting for blogging inspiration to strike. What a silly thing to do.

Insecurities kept rising up in the form of questions: Do you actually think you’re interesting enough to warrant writing a blog? Who do you think you are? Why would anyone be interested in what you have to say? Are your songs even good enough? Do you know enough to be writing?

Although I’ve been reading up online, I know only the basics of songwriting, and essentially next to nothing about the music business. There are so many knowledgeable people out there that have so many different resources. What do I know? Zilch.

And so I twiddled my thumbs waiting. What’s a girl to do?

I woke up this morning with one of those cartoon lightbulbs hanging over my head. I’ve been talking myself out of everything.

It doesn’t matter that I don’t know as much as other people. I will learn.

It doesn’t matter if my songs aren’t amazing. I will improve.

It doesn’t matter that other people have more resources than I do. I will find my own.

There’s no need to be completely knowledgeable. There are tons of other blogs and websites that are in the know. This is a learning process.

It doesn’t matter if the only person who reads this is me (though it would be nice to know I’m not only talking to myself).

This blog is for myself. Today it may be a vehicle for getting my thoughts down. The next day it may be for organizing my scattered brain. And the day after that? Who knows.

This is for me and my relationship with songwriting. The only person who can take that away from me is myself.